BIPOLAR SOBER / TOOLBOX / ESSAYS

SHIT I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT.

RECOVERY. BIPOLAR. ADDICTION.
LIFE. AND WHATEVER THE FUCK
ELSE ENDED UP ON THE PAGE.

01 / ESSAYS

SOMETIMES
I NEED MORE
THAN A BULLET POINT.

Some things fit neatly into a coping skill, a definition, or a list of things to try.

Some shit doesn't.

These are the longer thoughts: recovery, mental illness, addiction, identity, consequences, starting over, and trying to understand what the hell happened without pretending there's always a clean answer.

02 / FROM THE NOTEBOOK

READ
SOMETHING.

Thoughts from somewhere between figuring shit out and realizing I probably never completely will.

01

RECOVERY

STARTING
OVER.

What happens when the life you thought you were building doesn't look anything like the life you're standing in now?

COMING SOON

02

ADDICTION

THE STORY
WE TELL
OURSELVES.

The explanations, excuses, bargains, and absolutely convincing bullshit that can make a terrible idea sound reasonable.

COMING SOON

03

BIPOLAR

WHICH PART
WAS ME?

Trying to understand identity when moods, episodes, impulses, choices, and consequences all get tangled together.

COMING SOON

04

LIFE

WHAT NOW?

Because eventually the crisis ends, the dust settles, and you're still standing there with a life that needs living.

COMING SOON
03 / WHY WRITE?

GET IT
OUT OF
YOUR HEAD.

Thoughts can sound airtight when they're bouncing around inside your own brain.

Writing makes you slow them down enough to actually look at them. Sometimes you find insight. Sometimes you find a pattern. Sometimes you discover that something you've been telling yourself sounds completely fucking ridiculous once it's on paper.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO KNOW
WHAT YOU THINK BEFORE
YOU START WRITING.

04 / YOUR TURN

WRITE YOUR
OWN FUCKING
ESSAY.

01

What is something I believe about myself that I have never seriously questioned?

02

What did alcohol, substances, or impulsive behavior actually do for me?

03

What am I still angry about?

04

What am I afraid will happen if my life actually changes?

05

What have I survived that I rarely give myself credit for?

06

Who am I when I'm not defining myself by my worst decisions?

07

What does the life I'm trying to build actually look like?

YOU DON'T NEED A CONCLUSION YET.

JUST START
FUCKING
WRITING.

Sometimes the point isn't finding the answer. It's finally asking the question.

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